When I was a young boy, I felt guilty if I was late for school. When I went into the school’s compund, I was deeply ashamed of my late. There was no one around me but just one man who opend the School’s gate. He didn’t say anything; no one was watching but I was hunted by feelings of guilt because I was late. I was lost in my thought how to explain to my teacher.
             I was back from other townships where my grandfather lived in that morning. My mother and I visited my grandfather’s home for two days. When we arrived at home, it was 9:30 am and it was too late. I couldn’t decide to go to school or not. Finally, my mother said that “Son, u have to go to school. Just go! Explain your teacher. Everything will be fine”. After thinking about my late, I breathed a sigh of relief when I realized I’m not doing intentionally. I walked to my classroom and got permission from my teacher to come in. I explained my teacher why I was late and my teacher accepted. My teacher started teaching again. I really love my life at that age and

I miss that moment of being an honest boy.

             Now, I have been employed as an Assistant Regional Manager for three years by a Project from UNDP. I have been dealing with many kinds of people in diffenent environments. After dealing with these people, my honesty and integrity was going to disappear from me for many times. I lost my environment that I love.

Actually, I didn’t lose an environment. I just lost  honest people around me.

            After I was employed, I have to deal with more than 100 people in my working environment. I’m second man in my work. We, me and Regional Manager, have to decide on many daily issues in our work. Being second man, I’m not a final decision maker. So, I couldn’t change some decision which shouldn’t be made but it was not all. If a decision leading to damage seriously to staff and project, I did to change the decisoion without doing myself but told it to higher level management. (ie, I was not seriously against with RM in preparing setting plan for a meeting. But I told gently to change his decision if it could seriously damage to staff and project.)
                Before I was employed as an Assistant Regional Manager, I was only 2 year experience in that field. But most of Branch Manager had over 10 years experience. They didn’t want to report through me because I was younger than them. So, I couldn’t have a chance to solve it to get better result sometimes. We couldn’t control other staffs if I stood by them in some case because they made offence. (ie, They have a chance to claim more day to comple a task at meeting but they didn’t. Later, they got all the blame from RM because they couldn’t give it in time.)
               I was in middle management level at my region. I’m responsible to make smooth between RM and all staffs. I tried my best. But most of the people were trying to destroy relationship between us and good staffs. These people never made an effort to finish their work or get better operation at field level. They have full support of many staffs who were like-minded people as them. After three years, their group grew bigger and they started to incitie the other staffs to make offence to us.
              I felt deeply sorry for good staffs. But I couldn’t do anything. It was too late. I simply lost them. Why? May be I’m not smart enough to keep them. But that group is bigger and stronger. If one group is bigger and stronger, they usually want to attack opposite one to vanish. So, they started to attack us using any method to make offence to us. Sometimes, I really want to strike back to them using any method. At that time, honesty and integrity is going to disappear from me.

Honestly, I didn’t do it till today. But how long can I stand these hit. I really don’t know.

             Yesterday, one of my friends said to me a saying “Lazy fish always goes in the downstream”. He means that lazy people don’t want to struggle for life so they always go easy ways. When I hear that, I think “Yes” he’s right. Later, I realize I couldn’t accept this.

“Lazy” doesn’t stand on struggling.

    Stupid people have to struggle for lief while smart people are enjoying their easy time.
    It doesn’t matter fish goes in the upstream or downstream. Where is the destination? The fish should go in the downstream or up stream? Where is the fish?
    Perhaps, the fish pass over the destination swimming in the upstream. So, it has to go in the downstream. It has to go in the upstream because the destination is in the upstream. Perhaps, the fish is already at the destination point. So it has to try to keep staying at that point against the stream.
    I think that situation is more important than upstream or downstream.

What do you think of this? Is there any option? If you were that fish where are you going?

               As Myanmar (one of the Asia countries) is developing country, there are many growing companies and organizations. Throughout the two decade, they got many experience in employee recruitment and human resource deparment emerge as importanmt issue among them. Now a day, they are trying to improve the capicity of the employees by creating happy working environment. Another fact is that they need to keep experienced emplyoees as other companies and organization want them.

                Companies and organizations have been started to create beneficial program for the employees such as leave credit, cash assistance for employee’s disability and loss of life, providing chance to join external training and scholarship, making salary increment and annual award. All employees have equal chance to get these benefits.

                Most of the Leaders of such companies and organizations said that he could get more effort from their employees, if they assume that they are safe from accidental errors, can get guarantee for their life and are happy in working environment. Leaders keep their employees showing how they care about their employees. Then, showing sympathy to employees is very popular here now a day. So, most of the Leaders treat their employees like that but some leaders didn’t know whether they should use this idea in their work or not.

                Everyone wants to show he/she is a person of great compassion. But we need to think it over again and again. Firstly, we need to consider on nature of our work. Even if above idea is suitable for our work, we should clearly define case by case. And we should tell clearly to our employees which case is acceptable and which case is unacceptable. If we didn’t do like that, employees could request our sympathy in every case and we could get trouble to decide. Moreover, what should we do, if someone make acceptable mistake in every month? So, we need to limit number of occurance by one employee.

            As I have been working in an office as supporting staff, I have to make some note and analysis report to my boss. Every week, I check and review on documents, progress data and make a short note and report it to my boss. So, I have been working with many files, documents and data.

                One day, my boss was going on a field trip and I got a request from head office to give some data they asked to my boss. I didn’t know what they are asking so I made a phone call to my boss. My boss said “search on my draft papers, and give it to head office”. So, I had to search throughout my boss’s draft papers. Unexpectedly, I found something that he used my short notes as draft papers.

After I graduated from university, I started to get a job. Fortunately, my sister had been working in Microfinance Project implemented by Pact at that time. During my holidays, I used to help my sister to complete her works in time. So, I’m familiar with the project’s activities. I thought that Microfinace isn’t a good one for poor people although I was in my dream to help people. I confused with the works of the Project. Although they are telling that we are helping poor households, they charge for some activities and take interest on the loans. I used to tell “Sis, you are a big liar to people”.

                After one or two month came back from University, I was very happy with my friends. I had a good time with my friends. One Saturday, my father told me “Son, you need to get a job experience, don’t spoil yourself”. So, I thought it over and over again. At last, I submitted an application to Microfinance Project and started to study what is microfinance?

                Since I had submitted an application, it was another four months. I spent my times studying, playing, enjoying fun with my friends. It was Friday evening, it was my sister who took a good new. My sister told me “Boy, you get a chance”. I got a request whether can I work in another city which was already a prject area. And I decided to go there.

                Another two years was gone, I got a lot of experience with Microfinance project and I realized what Microfinance is. I thought my dream come close to me and I knew that I was very happy when I was with the villagers. I was happy helping with cash and non cash activities to poor households. We went to project village to meet the clients and giving advice, showing we care about the poor families.

                After Nargis Cyclone in 2008, Delta region was severely damaged. After one year, I wanna go to there to percitipate in restarting of Microfinance activities. So, I made an official request to move there. Luckily, I was transferred to there by board of Management. I was very happy and went to there and joined the team. Two years passed, and I’m still working with the poor families through field promotors.

                I haven’t change mind for poor people. After two years, I feel something is wrong with our clients. Finally, I realize that people from Cyclone area change a lot. Most of the poor households are getting trouble with repayments. I just can’t understand what’s going on. There are a lot of job oppourtinity in here. Why did people get trouble with repayment?

                During 2010, there was a flood in June and most of the people lost some of their crops, we went to the villages and took some evidences and we reported it. According to project beneficiaries welfare program members who lost crops was provided with cash. After Nargis Cyclone, people on affected area were provided with cash and support from many countries, Local NGO, INGO, government and some private company. Moreover, there are other NGOs working under the same umbrella. They have the same goals but different strategy. Some provide in “Grant”.

There are many people around the world who use internet. They are human and as a result of human being, they have different believe in using internet. We can separate people “using internet” into three categories such as users, advanced users and Professional (Technicians). In here, we neglect people which use internet for business purpose because they are only for the business. Then, I have to ask you a question who are you? I mean are you a normal user or advanced user or professional? Most of the people are advanced users I suppose and what did they do while using internet? Suffering, downloading, chatting, sharing, learning, submitting application, shopping and more activities can be found. The point is that some activities can be done by individual and some others can’t. Example, suffering and downloading may be done by individual but chatting and sharing need at least one partner. In case of data sharing social website, we need to have respect and trust among us. Some people are very bad because sometimes they give us interruption and disappointment while chatting (message, video).  Here, I want to say something that some people use chatting (message, video) for their sexual impulse and flittering. Therefore, most of the girls are trying to avoid some invitation because they don’t know him very well. We don’t have to blame these girls because bad people didn’t have horns on their head. Because of bad people, we are losing some chance in case of learning speaking skills. We are losing Trust among us but we didn’t know. So, I’m telling that from here and TRUST will be born among us again.