this is my first post. i feel tired right now. i'm going to get to sleep but before that i'm going to rearrange my thoghuts by writing this post. it's a little cold in my room but it's ok to me because i like cold. I feel cold inside as well. it's like an harmony between outside and insede of me. I'm a little unsattled because I have an exam in four days ahead. It's no big deal but i feel a little fidgety. being nervious is not an strange thing to me. I don't know what I need because nothing is intresting to me.(yeah...i'm depressed)

the only thing I need is to sleep for whole eternity. I need to forget everything. I need to let go of the world . let the world be occupied with his own bissiness: economic crisis, war, poverty, social injustice, corruption, racism, environmental polution, etc. I need to forget all of the faces I've seen during my life and let them sink in their superficial world: money, love, getting laid, being attractive,good-looking,famous, powerful, etc... who cares what's happing in their little hyperactive mind of them?

i need to immerse in a dark, thick, warm, quiet space. an space in nowhere, without any portion of time  and full of oblivion and innocence... i need to stop being active and let go myself float in dreams; dreams that are full of living tasteful colors. I am tired. I am weary. I could sleep for thousand years. I need to sleep...but I can't.