Why would I think for the situation of being dumped?

BECAUSE, this might happen and it will happen sooner or later…along the way. I do not  know how would it feel….

The thought of being thrown like a crumpled paper over the trash can….scares me. How would I handle this situation, when after investing emotional attachment….. And you will be dumped….PERHAPS, it will surely HURT!

Sometimes, I wonder if this four -letter-word has really have the so called wizard or magical power  -     because it could turn/make things happened even the impossible one!!! 

Having been in the situation....and having found myself being overpowered by the feelings that I do not know  -    put me into the edge  -    will I just ignore these feeling and the person at the same time or will I just let this feelings reign over me?

Huh!! It's so hard to fight your own emotion.

 these feelings helped me feel great for its humor ,its warmth,its charm  made me feel happy.Although, FEAR, trust, SHAME ( If ever) merge with in me, but it felt so good....

I was that mystified of what is really going with me.So many queries lingers on my mind.....is this love or merely a physical attraction or perhaps i am just longing for something i do not know. This  is  the feeling i was searching deep in me for so long. However, the feeling came acrooss to my life when i've met this one whom i hated much before. Why did I've experience a feeling like this when it is not suppposed to happen at this point of time. W e both have a world of our own. And that s the reson why i am puzzled to have a feeling such this to this person at a wrong time. Everytime and then i saw this man...electric shock comes with in me. I cant even resist the gaze when our eyes met,I always have to look it down afraid that this person might read the message that would flickered in my eyes. I've tried not to look at him and yet chances are always there......our eyes always met.Silent message from those stares conveys something I do not know. Days....months...goes by such feeling deepens even its name seared in my mind......How could I resist this.....I put this thought,feeling out of my mind for so many times however  its seemed like a rushing water from the river trying to find its way out....until such a time when i woke up one day.... i was with him.