I read news and watch videos on YouTube, then take note some new words. I also keep intouch with English through social media, sharing everything with others. I also writer in English here https://audnyasta.blogspot.com/ and https://kosavocabulary.blogspot.com/

I was thinking all the time, asking myself where is the best guy I hope to help me. However, I never find him. When I face something strange for me, I was not confident to handle it alone. I always think that I was under qualified. I had to find another guy who is better than me. "I am not them, so that I am not great," I thought.

I lived my life that way. However, the fact I never found that guy. However, I always study. "Life is learning", I learn everything. I think I am the one with the greatest curiosity. I used to let my friend be a leader, to handle something great. 

Everything would be worse in my hand, I thought. However, I found they were less qualified than me. I know that. Then I thought I should get someone else who was greater than him. I did it a lot.

Finally, I found a great sentences presented by a great motivator, he said that I am the one I have been waiting for. I figured it out, I got it.

I tried to be responsible about everything bad around me. I must keep doing. Then I got progress gradually. I feel greater now. I am a qualified one. Life is not bad as I thought. Everything is fine. The bad moment will go away, and the good moment are always waiting.