ESL Discussion

  Hi fellas, I dont write this for an advice, at least you can give it, then, go ahead, you are welcome,  anyway I only want to share a part of my life, I am not proud of it, btw I am married since 2013,  i have a very handsome kid, he is 1.5 years old.    I am 35,    More than a year ago, I met a girl,  she was a coworker,  since I saw her  I fell in love,  she is young than me  (27 years old, just like my wife)  and she is very cute, she has a very nice attitude,   at the begginig  I saw her like a gold digger,  because she dressed  very sexy  and as I can saw,  she always  had very expensive things,  anyway,  I never talked to her when we were at the same company  because I thaught  she is out of my range.   after a year,  she quite her job,  and  I found her  on the street  and then I asked her to go out with me,  she said,  ok.  why not,   then we started to date,   I had some troubles to left my house  because my wife always  asked me,  where are you going...  so  on......     I was very interested in her   after long time dating each other,  I tryed to kiss her,  but  she didnt want,  despite of,  we still date each other,  just to drink and listen to music,  I told  her (many times)  that  I like  her  and I would like to have a relationship with her,  but  she always  said,  come on,  u are married  I cant,    But...  I dont understand  why the hell she always  want to go out  with  me,  she knows  I am married,  and sometimes  she texts me and ask me to go for some beers,  when we are in the car  I always  touched her  (her face, legs, hands,  as if we were a couple)      a couple of days ago,  she asked me to take her to her home, because she was in a party,  she  was completely drunk,  I thought,  this is my opportunity lol,   so on the road my car started to malfuction,  then I cant went with her,   the next day,  she asked me to joing her  to do something,  I spend almost one day with her,  I was so worried about  my wife,  thanks God  she never  called me.     I said to myself, this will be the last time I go out with this woman,  but  today  I started to text her  and asked to go out,   I dont know  why I act  this way,  I mean  my wife is young,  hot and sexy,   I think I have  everything I want  at home,  so I dont know why I am interested in another woman,    My promise for next year is stopped to cheat on my wife,  ( I dont know I I cheated on already,  because  I have never had sex or kissed another woman).    Ty for take some minutes of ur time I read me.   bye  bye.     (pd.  If some one of u can tell me how to win the love of such woman,  ur comentes will be apreciatted )