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When I was happy girl :) ....    :(

I remember, first time that I saw scary movie I was about 6 years old .first movie that I saw named "Deadly dolls"  I remember that my father never permit me to see that movie ,because  he knew that I love movies  and impress me a lot and immediately simulate what ever that I see in the movie .

My father had this experience when I was 5 years old and  I saw a movie in the TV about people who trapped in the forest and they set fire because  they wanted to banish wildlife like bear and wolf .my father always defines  that ..you were watching that movie Carefully ,after movie versa vice always you did not say any thing ( that was my habit to speak about the character with my father a lot : like why that man do that ?why that woman was angry ? why that boy had the same toy ?and finally I want it daddy pleaseeeeeeeeeeee ..Mama please buy me the same..lol) and go to the yard and after that vanished ,,and suddenly your sister (my younger sister ) scream that  daddy fire …yes I was in the basement and when my father wanted me the reason I answered that I just wanted  banish the bear ..

I never scared anybody and anything till my elder brother showed me that movie, he said: do not you scare me?

I said : no you look like buffoon how can I scared you ?( he was wearing a scary mask ) and he said OK maybe you scare when you see  this movie ..and  in while I love movies ..he just press the button PLAY…

And after that I was not happy girl…..i scared every thing ,even the  time that I wanted to go to the rest room I have to take my younger sister ..With passing the time I was coward and unhappy and really curious to see another scary movie.. Until when I was 10 my Cousin  came our house and said : hey you said that do not scare any movie ,did not you ?(I just pretend ,because I scared more than enough )

She said : my parents was looking a movie last night , I just heard a voice and I could not sleep well ,maybe you can see it.

I said myself :so whatever It is ,,it must not to be much more scary than what I saw last time  ,, I swallowed my mouth water and in while I had a style of hero ,I said : OK lets go..hehe

She played movie and left  me ,she said she even scared the sound of this movie ,I said OKyou go i can see lonely  ,I saw 45 minute of this movie and after that I do  not remember .when I wake up my mother was crying and asking  me uninterrupted ,who ask you to saw this movie ?...ha? (the name of movie was The Exorcist)

After that I saw her the first character of that movie every where, specially when I wanted to sleep.

She was beside me, beside my bed ,she breath and whole of my body was shaking  , wrapped myself with my blanket ,but she still  was there,

I was getting a coward ,really scared everything ,till one night that I was really suffering I decide to fight with girl ,she always was beside my bed ,,I started fighting in my mind    and what was the consequence  , I do not remember I just remember that when I waked up ,I did not scared any thing ,I even can stay home when I was alone and I was happy girl again ,never scared any movie and do every thing that I want (lol it takes long time if I wanna tell you )

I was happy till last week  that my sister showed me a video in the youtube ,about a Muslim  girl who  there is a  jinn in her body ,,just like all of my fear wake up ,I even cant sleep in my bedroom ,last night I slept with my mother in the living room ,I forced my mother to leave my father and her room and sleep with me in the living room )what can I do ? I am not happy any more !!!!!

I am not a baby but i scared now :(