This is Also a Way of Love

I have always been questioning Allah, and it was when I was hurt, sad and in pain, “Why me? Why it is happening to me?” In me prays, in prostration, I called Him as if He is closed to me, and he, of course, is very close to me, but it has always been a matter of realization. To all my prayers, and begging I received no replies, heard no words. I got tired calling Him again and again, my raised hands fell down in fatigue and a feeling of even more unhappiness rose in me. “He should have said something, even let me know why people hurt me, why was there all unhappiness for me. Am I myself bad?” I always asked this all the time. Then one day I realized that the answer was already known to me. I then recognize why it was so happening to me.

My all those begging in long prostration, asking, why he was not answering to my prayers, raising my face towards the sky, wiping my tears from my cheeks as I was going to have an answer from Him, lying and closing myself in my own arms hugging myself, and saying, “are you listening to me, are you seeing me I am alone”. A realization awoke in me, that He liked these, he loved the way I beg him, plead him. Then I felt that I was not alone. He has always been near me, closed to me. He Loved me a lot and wanted me to be near to Him, closed to him. But I would only get close to him when I was hurt and in pain, otherwise, I never cared Him that much. So, all those pains and troubles inflicted upon me just to make me close to him go near him. He let the people hurt me, breaking my heart so that I would run to him begging and pleading telling him that I was hurt. He liked my talking to him, to call him, to tell him my pain, just like telling to a mother. He loved me to show Him my wounds, how badly I was treated by the people, how I was deceived and cheated by the people who claimed to be my closed loving friends, how they turned against me and began to hurt me, He wanted to hear from me, “Are you listening, are you seeing.”

Realizing how close He is to me I found myself in serenity, a world of peace and tranquility where there is no feeling of any pain. Why I felt so, it was because in my long prostrations I found myself very closed to Him. He has always been closed to me, but I was not there. He loved all my those cries, begging, pleading, telling Him how I was hurt, how my heart was broken, how it was wounded, and the same time he gave me strength, patience, tolerance to face all those pain, not with tears, but with smile, because I have now realized that this is also a way of love.

The post shows the reality in one's life.

Of course, Everyone thinks the same you do and no doubt in it.

We may think god isn't responding. But the realisation how we take him(god) always. Some pray only when they are sad, And other pray only in happy, but none always pray him all the time, whether it is happy, sad, excite or joy.

Here is a question for you all( Please don't think in a scientific way).

We do prayers to god, I am alone with a lot of troubles and none is there to care and how could I face this situation and it seems me world is going to end.

We always pray for us, family and friends and other important people.

But put a question yourself, how many people are praying for god only( without asking anything in return).

As you said, he is always with us, but I guess it is our perception to understand him.

Sometimes we may think he is a moon in this sky, On full day, it appears fully but later it disappears day by day.
But the fact is moon always in the Sky, the god is always in the person, the perception or the way of getting is kinda confusion or different. He likes to see him and we should always pray all the time.

Another thing, the problems are different in different people. Maybe, a person find solution in a quick way or other person may not quick but he will also find solution.

God likes to help us always and at the same time we should do our best along with his blessings.

Sometimes, I recall some people, and there "Jessica cox" the first female limbless pilot, even she is physically challenged, but she challenged the challenged ( she got success even uncomfortable circumstances).

After all, saying is easier than said. All is our will to get well.

Wish you all good luck.

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Mishaikh July 19, 2018 13:35

Thanks Dara, your comment and appreciation mean a lot to me.
salah gammaa July 18, 2018 19:59

Aap bolo, Allah dega. You keep asking God and He will give you. It is important that you ask Him and at the same time you are sure that Allah will give you and respond to your asking. Loving Him is one of those ways to your response when you ask God. Nice blog.
Mishaikh June 13, 2018 12:11

But put a question yourself, how many people are praying for god only( without asking anything in return).

That is the gist of your view point Shekhar. God has created Its creation for none but WORSHIP Him. (But the creation (us) has forgotten that He has taken the responsibility to fulfill our needs) and put Him before when we need Him (in our pain).

I appreciate your elaborative view point Shekhar. Thanks a lot.
Shekhar June 13, 2018 7:33

The post shows the reality in one's life.

Of course, Everyone thinks the same you do and no doubt in it.

We may think god isn't responding. But the realisation how we take him(god) always. Some pray only when they are sad, And other pray only in happy, but none always pray him all the time, whether it is happy, sad, excite or joy.

Here is a question for you all( Please don't think in a scientific way).

We do prayers to god, I am alone with a lot of troubles and none is there to care and how could I face this situation and it seems me world is going to end.

We always pray for us, family and friends and other important people.

But put a question yourself, how many people are praying for god only( without asking anything in return).

As you said, he is always with us, but I guess it is our perception to understand him.

Sometimes we may think he is a moon in this sky, On full day, it appears fully but later it disappears day by day.
But the fact is moon always in the Sky, the god is always in the person, the perception or the way of getting is kinda confusion or different. He likes to see him and we should always pray all the time.

Another thing, the problems are different in different people. Maybe, a person find solution in a quick way or other person may not quick but he will also find solution.

God likes to help us always and at the same time we should do our best along with his blessings.

Sometimes, I recall some people, and there "Jessica cox" the first female limbless pilot, even she is physically challenged, but she challenged the challenged ( she got success even uncomfortable circumstances).

After all, saying is easier than said. All is our will to get well.

Wish you all good luck.
Mishaikh May 28, 2018 19:22

Thanks Marshaa for all encouragement and appreciations.
Marshaa May 28, 2018 19:18

nice post. always feel good to read your writing. Thanks dear Mishaikh..
Mishaikh May 25, 2018 11:04

Snow White

Thanks for encouragement.
Mishaikh May 23, 2018 12:41

Thanks Onee-chan

for all encouragement and appreciation.
Mishaikh May 23, 2018 12:40

@Shaik accept thanks from Mishaikh for appreciation and dua.
Onee-chan May 23, 2018 12:26

You described your feeling with very nice and appropriate words here, Mishaikh.

Surely I agree that this is also a way of love. Great to read this. Thank you so much.

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