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Here we are again... the month of December.  It still is a special month for me because of what it represents, the birth of Jesus Christ, and the end of a year and the beginning of a new one. 

Time to enjoy again that excellent performance of George C. Scott in Charles Dickens' Chrismas Carol.  For me, the best production ever. And as you may remember, in this movie Ebenezer Scrooge was visited by three ghosts representing the Chrismas past, Chrismas present, and Christmas to come.  Once again, they re visiting me.

Christmas past... where have those moments gone??  I remember when I was a little child and the family got together to put the Christmas tree in the living room, the lights in the balcony...  Now it's me alone who puts it there, along with the manger.

Where are those old movies that I used to watch, like The Little Drummer Boy, Santa Clause, Frosty, Rudolph, those innocent, yet touching movies for kids... the little kid still inside me is craving for them.

Where have all those family moments gone?  Is Santa still delivering presents on that night?? Am I still on time to submit my wish list??

Christmas present... what a difference from the past... now the tree doesn't have as many presents as before, and the "presents" I get are always predictable, usually the same things every year, the surprise factor rarely appears.  And this Christmas supposedly won't be the exception... another Christmas alone in some way, since siblings have their families and spend with them, while in my house just a lunch, or early dinner.  Both my parents are sick and I take care of them, so at least I will have them, but not the way I used to have them before. 

That causes me my traditional "Christmas depression", although I am eager to reach midnight and put Baby Jesus in my manger and pray to Him.  Let's see how it will go this year. 

And yes... Christmas yet to come... Scrooge was afrid of this last ghost, no wonder why... the representation of a dark, unknown, and unpredictable future...  What is to come here??  One day sooner or later, my parents will be gone, and I will stay alone. That is what scares me the most... loneliness.  It is not the same to be surrounded by those you love, sharing moment in family, that to be all by yourself, although it is said that if you have Christ in you, you have everything.  Yet, I'm still worried about my Christmases to come. 

But for the time being, let's see what this one brings, what tv specials, what gifts and bonuses from work.  At least a turkey, some sweets, wine, are to come, along with a small cheque. 

And as little Tim used to say... and God bless us all everyone. 

Merry Christmas from the center of the world.