Today is chinese valentine's day.i did nothing but just stayed in front of my pc.It is a kind of tough time for me.i seemed waiting for somebody,but what i did showed that i was keep away from somebody.
there is a guy,just because of his age,i seems to keep away from him in reality.But i know he is still in my mind.i remember we talked so happy about everything.i remember we both don't want to hang off our phone though severous hours past.And i remember what a gentlemen before me and still miss his being "bad boy".
I miss him actually ,but never say that i miss him yet,even today.i hate i am so mean to him.How i wish i have said i love him actually.but all are just in my mind ,i don't dear to say it out.i hate myself again.
he has been courting me for so long time.I even said that we were not possible to him,but he seems never give up--sending me some messages sometimes,and keep all my connection ways(i was so mean to him that i cancelled all his connecting ways from him).
Before i knew him,i don't know anything about love.But he showed me "the happyness can phone the love one","what a luck thing to day good morning ,afternoon and good night"and "the happyness can have a close friend "...all the thing ,i remember.
sometimes i thought:if i were old enough ,i would be with him without any doubt.How wonderful if i was borned early!and why i weren/t born no heart ,so that i can just be with him?
Dear i am not a good girl ,i was always hurt you.i am afraid i will still hurt you in the following .i don;t know what to do .i want to say a "sorry" to you.But it still behind you.i hate myself.i am so sorry.
wish you good forever.
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