I rejected aggrieved,
because I thought I deserve happiness
I refused wounded,
because I thought I deserve healed
I have counted all the bad things and forgot almost all the good things
easily.....
I found Her, sit on the corner of this gaudy cafe, fancy clothes, expensive bag, elegant shoes, luxury perfume, hmmm She wore almost two months of my salary for this presence....
She was smiling, looked bitter on her sophisticated face, waved her hands like a master order their minion to come. I just smiled at her and realized she never changed.
I was gazing at her eyes and found a deep sorrow, I knew she asked me to come for this reason.
Let me tell you who are these awesome women who sat in front of me......
She was a queen of my heart, my a half-life, the one whom I shared my joy, my jubilance. till she decided to choose luxury than love.
She threw me into the deepest mourning, and I have woken up from that after years.
" money can not buy a happiness....." She said.
I heard her deep breath, her eyes were looking somewhere....empty.....
I was silent, even in my mind I wanted to say something rude to make her realized that She said no happiness without money a few years back.
revenge is always as sweet as sugar.....but I did not want to do it, because sugar causes diabetic, and I don't want to get that LOL....
" At least you can buy a food with that" I tried to break the ice.
" yeah, but no food for your soul" her voice sounds weak.
And then the stories flowing smoothly as river water from upstream to downstream.
The story about anxiety,insecurity,faithless,painfulness,unlucky feelings,these causes ungratefully.
I rejected difficulties because
I thought I deserve ease
I refused hardship because
I thought I deserve favor
I have counted all the misfortune and forgot almost all the satisfaction easily.....
I saw tears on her eyes, but I couldnt replace with smile,because life is
only about choises and she took hers already.Happiness is simply, but she chooses not to see.
Trampled away from the gaudy cafe, she tried to smile but failed, I let her away while continuing to pray for the best.
I rejected loss because
I thought I deserve benefit
I treated God as a business partner
once I invested my kindness
I thought I deserve profit
I have counted all the torrent and forgot almost all the triumphs easily.....
I walked away, tried to calm down....
I saw myself while seeing her. she looked like my reflection...how fragile we are as a human being, how susceptible we are while accept suffering...
How forgetful we are while receiving all the good things in life...
Tears flowing,I realized how often I forget to be grateful for all I gained. Keep chasing something bigger , a lot more and I slipped off all I held .
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Paula Thank you dear, I realize theres so many mistakes I made, onlythank you because you gave me ideas, really appreciate it. I learn a lot
kiss kiss dear
Saya tidak tahu anda penyair, Ratu. Penalokan dan bernalawan berarti desakan. Your phrases about rejection and refusal mean insistence. Ratu, that means you are a person with a great ability to carry on despite the difficulties. Thanks for sharing.
I rejected aggrieved, because I thought I deserved happiness.
I refused wounded, because I thought I deserved healing.
I have counted all the bad things, and have forgotten almost all of the good. Easily.
I found her, sitting on the corner of this gaudy café. Fancy clothes, expensive bag, elegant shoes, luxurious perfume, hmmmmm, her attire, I suspected, was worth almost two months of my salary.
She was smiling, it's bitterness marring her sophisticated face. She waved her hand like a Master telling her minions to come. I just smiled, she never changed. Gazing into her eyes I saw deep sorrow and guessed this was her reason for beckoning me over.
Allow me to introduce to you this awesome woman sitting in front of me. She was the queen of my heart, one half of my whole, the one with whom I shared my joy, my jubilance, until she decide to choose luxury over love.
She threw me into a period of deepest mourning, from which I have, since, awakened after a number of years.
I heard her breathe deeply, saw her eyes were looking..... somewhere......empty...... "Money can't buy happiness", she whispered. I was silent, although, I wanted to say something rude, to remind her of her words a few years back that there could be no happiness without money.
Revenge is always sweet as sugar, but I did not say what was on my mind. Sugar causes diabetes and I did not want to get that....LOL
"At least you can buy food with money", I said to break the ice forming from the long silence. "Yes, but no food for the soul", she mouthed weakly.
Then the stories flowing as smoothly as a river moving downstream, anxiety, insecurity, faithlessness, painfulness, that ultimately led to feelings of ungratefulness
Ratu.....here is some of it I will finish the rest in a bit......if I have miss quoted a meaning.......forgive me.....I do need to ask you a couple of things.....will do that when I see you......HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Anonymous...
your comment completely amazes me,its gave me aa new idea, I found your sentence express what I want,
------ but bearing myself against saying what remains to be rudely told. I wanted to call her attention to what she said years ago, "
I looked bitter at her sophisticated face----
gave me an Idea how to build my sentence so the reader will easily understand what msg that I want to send.
Thank you very much Anon for your attention and appreciation. I hope there will be more and more member like you to help others with their English.
Hm...Surely your blog's post call forth my greatest admiration, and thus assent me to commence perusing carefully what it carries.
Whew!!! Reflection as an uncountable noun is a thought or memory of past events. I welcome the title, expressly when it reflects the content of the blog, it bestows continual favour in it.
" I rejected aggrieved" ... Grammatically according to " Adjective order" I rejected feeling or being aggrieved. Whatever, that's a great attitude. Relevantly, "Who restrain anger" Quran 3-134. Psychologically, that's called "Emotional intelligence" an way to understand and manage your emotions. Personally, i couldn't turn a blind eye, if i treated unfairly. Usually i feel aggrieved. "Because i thought i deserve happiness"
I found her sitting ina guady cafe on the corner; Fancy .... etc.
" She's worn almost all of my two months salary, for this presence" What a fabulous rhetorical satirical statement!! Definitely an amazing metaphor, it's a blot out of the blue.
She was smiling, i looked bitter at her sophisticated face*. shiny blue skies returned reflecting my smile again.
"Money doesn't buy happiness, Money isn't a key of happiness, but it's a material of the key made".
I was silent, but bearing myself against saying what remains to be rudely told. I wanted to call her attention to what she said years ago, "No happiness without Money".
To be continued .....
Ratu......I am going to work on your blog tonight once I get home from an errand........and correct what mistakes I see...........and I will post it here........I have tried to start this morning but so much is interrupting me........but I will get it done this evening and you will have the corrections I feel is necessary..........HUGGGGGGGGGGGGG
This is how I wrote my story, like you are reading a poem...thank you
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