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I was inspired by Abd Al-ghafoor Ajjour blog called MORBID LOVE.

This blog is in response to his poem which I just totally made up.  His poem is about a love story that didn't seem to end up well.  But all I was reading there was his side of the story.  I'm not saying that everything he said there wasn't true or exaggerated.  But the story is not complete without knowing her thoughts and feelings as well.  I am curious to hear her story.  It could be good or could be bad.  Her confessions may or may not confirm all of what has been said by Ajjour.  But who knows?  All I know is that each one of us, no matter what others may say, deserves the benefit of the doubt.  After all, we are talking about love here.

So, in order to satisfy myself, I've written a reply to his poem, heheh.  Ajjour, I hope you won't curse me after reading this.  And you know what guys? I just realized that replying to someone else's blog like this is also a good way to practice and improve our English.  Why so? Because it provokes our feelings and challenges our creativity and imagination.  At least that's how it worked for me.  So here it goes:

When I call on you...

(You didn't realize you have called me the wrong name.)
When you don’t answer me...
(It's because I'm afraid I'd say the wrong stuff.)
When I wait for you...
(I was also waiting for you.)
When you forget about me...
(I have not. You were waiting at the wrong place.)
When I ask your friends where you go...
(That's not always a wise thing to do.)
When they tell me she is angry...
(They like to make up stories just to test your reaction.)
When I can’t close my eyes as thinking how to satisfy you...
(I perfectly understand how it is for I feel the same way.)
When you refuse all my apologies...
(I told you they are not necessary.)
When I tell you I’m sorry...
(I was waiting for you to say something else rather than sorry.)
When you tell me I won’t forgive you...
(Why should I when I know you did nothing wrong?)
When I cry out blood for you...
(You can't imagine how it tore my heart to see you in pain.)
When you laugh at my tears...
(I was actually laughing at myself.)
When I say I won’t let you go...
(My heart was confused.)
When you answer that was funny...
(Funny because I realized that's what I wanted to hear but I'm not sure if I can do better this time.)
When I tell you I love you...
(And I honestly believed you.)
When you tell me your love is morbid...
(Indeed it is! Since I have already lost confidence in myself I was scared you'll get hurt around me.)
When I tell you I want you...
(I knew that well from the start.)
When you tell me you are nauseating me...
(I was actually crying that time and didn't want you to see so I said those words to make you go away and hide my tears.)
When I send you my messages...
(Oh, they complete my day!)
When you don’t care about them...
(Not that I didn't care, just that I didn't know what to say.)
When I write my words for you...
(They touch the deepest part of me.)
When you don’t accept to listen to them...
(That's what you thought but in reality, I've carved them all in my heart.)
When I‘m ready to do anything for you...
(What else can I ask for after you've already given me everything?)
When you are ready only to revenge from me...
(Silly you! Don't you think you've been reading me wrong, honey?)
When I'm only interested in seeing you happy...
(The same happiness I wish for you to have.)
When you get only interested in seeing me suffering...
(I never meant for you to suffer. Can't you see how much I am hurting too?)
When everything you’d like to see is when I’m leaving...
(It's the most painful thing to see yet I've learned to accept it.)
When all our sweet memories fade out in your eyes...
(They are kept sacred in the most special place in my heart.)
And when you start dreaming in your future without me...
(It's when I started waking up from a dream and live in reality.)
I know that this is the time to tell you…
(I wanted to let you know that...)
bye-bye.
(Till we meet again....)