Few month ago i messed up everything but I had lot of difficult task to complete,why my mind was being so unexplained i did not know that time. it was moved differently. I felt awkward & all steps seem lesser than needed to. It took an effort to back regular atmosphere to kept the mood ease. As if it didn't exist.I took a deep breath and made my way up to did perfectly. I blinked several times, but the gruesome scenes refused to listen to me. i tried to rub away the unknown scene of tenderness. I struggled a lot to my mind. The sadness was not fresh. my chest heaving up and down. I couldn’t hold the pain in without exploding but generally I like to hide it from every one.I felt too strange, too upset to task anything. My heart has wondering. strange feeling as if I become empty.such emotion give the impression, someone has to be with me to share this reaction. If any one supported me during that time then it all had been burst out of me in a flood of words.
Sad frame of mind as a signal for me to stop task or take leave but have to stay to complete the task.its fire urgent to do. I know my mind is not naïve, it is alert. alert to every sound… alert to every sight & shadow. I spread up my mind to touch the feeling but failed. The thought became grayer as i moved deeper into my mind ….. They are so wrapped up in their own dilemma… when got depressed they hardly paid any attention to me …. It’s made me felt like an unlawful. I tried to listen until find out the silence reason, as i sketch a blank so could not think of a thing. The tension became a chant in my mind. finally after struggled 3 hours the truth reveal such a flood of pang of guilty rolled over me and the guilty feeling was i hurt someone,as it is clear to me so my brain was working.it was support me to did or complete a lot of errands .and finally I finish my task within just 1:30 hours which I couldn’t completed by 4 hours during being depressed….
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@ Sono....No issue, all we have right to post our own opinion..i respect every one's gentle opinions... thanks for leaving a great comments & help me to find out mistake. actually i did not get clue maximum time if i hurry in writing. in future have to more conscious about choose in subject title.
Again thanks.
Aggressive blog, sorry nirzhor I didn't see any messed up stuff in your blog.
you used balanced English... I found new words to your blog...
thank you so much, you write your 2nd blog with humble English.
@ Afroja.... it is a special quality to believe known world people, i have seen it with you. really you are so pure & fresh minded, obviously you are amiable for all guy's.I wonder if have such special friend or known person to whom could always trust & have no secrets from each other, none at all.
@ seeker.....
Nice to see your comments here again! your writing leaves me a queer smile in my face. i tried to reply the same in your wall but failed being error of net.
The way you moved in the club, me also use the same strategy at first time and all-day i obsessed about English learning before found the site! still i am obsess and will be until grab all technique.
As we know how to weave dream and fly to reach the dream. A life without challenge, hardship and principle seems pointless and ineffective. But if inputs the challenge then come out insistence and courage and strength to do hardship working to resolve anything.
Thanks a ton to a share valuable comments on the ground.
i always try to share my sadness as well as my worries and pains with my known world, it eases my sorrows.