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At my first lecture on my first day at University I saw some girls from another group at the first desk next me. One of them was really beautiful.

One day I was standing in the corridor with my friend. When my group-mate introduced the girl to me and asked if I would help her to solve her tasks from Math. I said "sure if I can". As with other girls from the capital she spoke in Russian. I helped her to solve tasks in Math, Informatics and Physics, and she helped me improve my Russian and English. I knew some Russian and no English. I tried to do more exercises to understand her every word and to speak with her in Russian and English.

In this way we passed two years of university. One day I asked her "If somebody tells you that he loves you and is ready to spend his whole life with you, what will you say?". She said «Who is that somebody and I am ready to listen to his words, but my life depends on my parents too". I did not say it was me, because I thought It would ruin our friendship. We stopped talking about it. I said if it's so, my chance to be with her in the future was zero.

         It was April and it was just a two of us doing our course-work in the laboratory. She said "I want to tell you something but don't tell our other friends". I said "OK, I will not". She told me, "After one month I will have a wedding". I did not know what to say as if our class overturned. Somebody called her and she stood up and left me.  

         I had not been allowing myself to talk about things like that with my father so I showed photos of the girl to my mother and told her the whole story. She said "If you want we will go to ask her hand but you have to know if she really wants to be with you and if her parents will accept our request." I was happy because my family had agreed. I returned to University.

         I was looking for a good opportunity to talk to her but next week I did not see her. I tried to call her but I could not. She had changed her phone number. Then she returned with a black headscarf - the symbol of mourning. I found out  that her grandmother had died. This situation was not good for me to talk with her about ourselves. But after some days I couldn't abstain and called her. But I could not get her. I called her friend and had her connect us. Finally she called me and said, "I don't want to talk with you." I asked, "Why?". She said "Because I don't want to" When she saw that I really wanted to talk to her face to face she agreed to meet me. Our lessons used to begin in the afternoon. So we decided to go there in the morning to have a talk. Finally, the next day we met. I told her everything and want to know her opinion. She said, "When my grandmother died her last wish was for me to merry our relative. I cannot ignore this. I told you about the wedding.  You knew about it and you didn't do anything, you did not tell me that you love me. Why? It's your huge mistake. We are already engaged. And now I am not able to do everything. "  So I got up and went out right to my apartment and don't know how I spent the time. After that I did not want to talk to her. I thought she used me just for her needs as I had read from one book. That summer she had a wedding and beside her four friends she invited me. I did not go.

         After the wedding she began studying by correspondence. For one year I hated her. Every time when I saw her I changed my way. Even when she came up to me to say hello, I did not answer. Then I thought to myself "Why do I hate her?. She helped me learn English and Russian, she made me have a feeling, my friends dream to fall in love, because of her I found a good job, and because of her I improved my relationship with people and in life. If I love her I want her to be happy". So we started to talk to each other as best friends.

         Now she has two children and she is happy.

         Now our family is in better condition. This summer I am going to be in some European countries and in Russia for two months for further trainings and travel. After coming back at the end of summer I will have a wedding party.

         I am happy that I had such a good student life that was full of love. It was my unlucky and unhappy love that made me lucky and happy.