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She didn’t answer my call…no reply on all of my message to her…

Mmm…she might be busy with her works now, maybe she had a meeting with all of her clients or she has been  busy with her father that was hospitalized.

But 3 days?? Come on….I feel something intrigued me…did I do something wrong to her? This is not her to be honest, something wasn’t right here….She hates me? but why? Those kind of thought keep ring around my head after 3 days with no news.

She read my messages but she didn’t reply me, and before she didn’t even read it, and earlier it’s not even delivered to her…

She blocks me? I was blocked by her? What?? What did I do? What I do wrong?

“damn it!!! Answer me…!!”  I just wanna know that you are OK…. I start to message her in a harsh way.

“just tell me what happen and I respect every decision u have made, but don’t leave me hanging like this”

On that afternoon, after so many calls I tried to dial, after all the stupid thought I had in my mind, after all despair, she finally showed up…

A short line popped up on my screen “ I lost him………………………….”

A picture showed after a man covered in white, surrounded by people.

My hands were shaking, my tongue was numbed, my body tremble, heart beating uncontrolled, some liquid rolled from the corner of my eyes…. Start to dripped down…. I lost my words…..

I hardly breathe…. I choked…..

She lost her half life…she lost her half soul…. She lost her man that she wants to build a home with…she lost the man that love her unconditionally…. that always be there for her…. that she want to surprised with something that he has been hoping for….

“She lost him…………

My tears are nothing compare to what she had…over the past days after he was gone..

It was 9.20PM.

Hangin’ there Joan!!!!

Come knocking at anytime you like, find me and I will be there for you….

I WILL ALWAYS THERE FOR U!!!!

It was 9.20PM