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Long time everyone!!! finally I have my holiday and join this site again. Will start up this season(?) by writing for Luci's challenge. It feels a bit quiet here, hope to contribute more and others can participate as well. sorry for the long text, LUci wanted downs and ups, lol xD Enjoy ;)

My dear Peppo,

I would like to tell you something nobody has an idea about. You may already hear it as a rumor in our neighborhood. So, it is not our family secret but I want to share it personally with you. You are the first daughter of my daughter with whom I have spent my last days. I am sure you will understand.

Many years ago, when I started having period, my parents arranged me a marriage with a man I didn’t know. I was very young and obedient, therefore I agreed. I believe there is no parent who want their children live in misery. Second thought, I had no idea what I was doing. The same about a man who will be my groom, I had no idea, but I had a bad feeling about him.

All had been planned and when everything had settled up, the party was being held during 3 days and nights, I did everything properly, all the customs and traditions, I sat on dais on which the bridal couple sit and smiled to the guests. After the party ended, I went to my husband family and got introduced by his family, one by one. All done and we stayed in my father’s house.

What happened next was something beyond people expectation, I refused him as my husband. I decided to stick with my second thought, that I didn’t see my future with him. He was not a good man, and the most important thing, He didn’t want me at all.

My dear granddaughter, you may think this is funny and weird altogether, but it was nothing but a misery. Spending your days with unfamiliar face who doesn’t know your worth, who doesn’t think about you at all, who doesn’t even try to start a conversation to make me feel comfortable. I didn’t see anything in him but a man who being forced to be in his current situation. It was not only me who had no idea, but also him. That’s why after a month of our marriage, we decided to break up. It was me who divorced him and off course this separation created bad image of me and my family. I told you dear, he wasn’t a good man, he didn’t care whether I lived or died, whether I was his wife or a beggar. That’s put me on the place to take an action to end this unhappy marriage life. It was ended soon and I was still virgin by that time.

About a year later, my family arranged a marriage again, this time I got to know him closer before decided whether I Would give it a go or not. He was a widow man just like me, but I was not sure he was also virgin like me because he had spent his first marriage for two years, yet they had no children.

This man was not as rich as my first husband, but was much younger and more handsome. When I saw him for first time, he showed me a sincerity through his big eyes. I accepted him and together we built our future from the rubble of our bad past. He is your grandfather, dear, your mother’s dad which accompanied us with his warm heart until his dead when your mother still a five years old kid. He was a great man who gave up everything to his family.

My beloved Peppo, what I am going to reach you through this letter is a rest of strive during my first marriage. When my father found out I wasn’t happy, he fell sick and burdened by regret but he didn’t let me know about it, even a word, until when he felt his time was near, he called and told me how sorrowful he was when I was having my first marriage, but he was glad I never blame my family for it. Then, he gave me a compensation of my obedience. I kept it in the corner of my room, dig a hole there and you will find a box, here is the key to open it. Kept it for your mother and her siblings, it is the compensation of your family obedience, I give it to you because I believe you can make a good use of it to family of us.

With love

Grandma