I knew it since the first time. I knew I was going to do it sooner or later. I didn’t find the strength to talk about this till now. Perhaps in this language, in this foreign tongue that it is not mine, I can say it easily. But wait, no, I didn’t kill her literally. I killed her when I left her. Not because I’m the best man on earth, the most beautiful, intelligent, nor even the best option for her, but because she loved me so much that she couldn’t believe it. Eleven years together. I definitely broke her heart in pieces. Two years went by since then. I knew another girl and we are having a great time together. But still, I feel terrible any time I remember her, and I must say, that I remember her a lot. I feel guilty. I didn’t knew that I could feel such a pain after so long. She was a great person. She IS a great person. I hope she has overcome this. I hope she has survived me. But why did I say that I knew I was going to kill her? Well, we tried to settle out our differences, but we both knew, since the beginning, that that may be not possible. And as time went on, our differences became more remarkable. Still, she didn’t seems to care at all. She wanted to go on. For my part, I felt it was enough. And it was a bloodbath. I don’t know if I killed her, but it felt as death to me, and a part of me has gone with her too.
Agustín
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Exactly. I have a lot of great memories. Thanks, Svitlana, you are very kind. See you!
It is one more unhappy end of a love story. So sad to hear that. (((
Anyway you have memories and you can live with them.
Be happy, dear Agustin.
Thanks for your comment, Svitlana. I’m agree with you. But actually, I don’t regret my decisión this time. Though I know perfectly how much she worth, we couldn’t go on as a couple. See you!
Unfortunately we value what we have If we are about to lose it or it is already been lost.
Unfortuately we can't bring time back. But we can correct our mistakes if it's not too late.
Nice blog, dear Agustín.
Oh..so you are a writer, great! Okay, if you allow me I would like to say time will heal your pain but how many years it would take to be okay or to feel no pain, it depends! But, you should know this time will come when you can look back sometimes with a smile on your face sometimes with tears on your eyes but you can do it then. So, give you time, enough time. And try to live your present time.
Of course, Marija. Sometimes I have that kind of difficulties myself, so don’t worry. We are learning together. This is what all of this is about, right? See you!
Yes, that's exactly what I thought - " better for " ..but sometimes I have difficulties to express my thoughts in my poor English. Thank you for correcting me.
I appreciate when people pointing out my mistake because I learn.
Thanks for your comment, Marija. I think you are exactly right in everything, except in one thing… I would replace the term “better than” for “better for”. Because this is not about one person being better than the other, but another person being better for me or for her. The girl that I am with now it’s different than her, not better than her. It’s just better for me. We are more compatible for almost everything. It is highly probably for my ex to be with someone else by now, and I would feel really happy about it. Regarding if love has an expiration date, It’s a quite interesting question… I don’t think so. Perhaps what it falls apart is passion, but if we really love someone, we are still loving him or her. I think so because this is the case. I mean, I still love her in somehow, for the person she is. She will be a part of me forever. But I wouldn’t be with her as a couple again…
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The harder it is to keep loving someone who betrays you. I guess she has overcome you already, maybe she found someone better than you..like you found someone better than her. :) You don't need to feel guilty. Maybe you did her a favour by leaving her. What do you think - does love have an expiration date?
Thanks for your comment, Onee-chan. Although, I don’t think people enjoy feeling pain. Most of the time things just happen, and we have to deal with it. Sometimes we can avoid them, sometimes we don’t. But yes, love is too much weird to understand it. See you!
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