No matter how desperately down you are, no matter how grey is your each and every day, no matter how many sleepless and stressful nights you went through or how much you regret....just… don't let your hope die. Once you burry your hope, you burry your soul and alive body with dead soul is in fact - dead YOU.
At times it might be hard to keep your hope up and of course it is easier to give up on everything, to immerse yourself somewhere down into the bottom of all the worst experiences, to lock yourself there and pretend you have no idea where the key is. To pity yourself is on your daily routine, to feel weak without energy is something you got used to, anxiety is your worst nightmare and to wish you were gone is your best idea ever.
You ask so many questions and try to find the answers but eventually it is just all useless because to change the past is impossible. It all has already happened and your mind won't ever delete it. You feel so empty that every word you are supposed to say is like a big stone that got stuck in your throat and makes you unable to pronounce anything.
However, if you believe in something, if you see at least little star in this darkness, it means you still have energy to face all those bad things, which surround you. One little kick from somebody around might be enough to show you that you are not alone and that there are people, who want you to move on and whose support give you strong energy. Suddenly you see that your hope is still alive. Hope, which is whispeing into your ear that one day you will wake up, your life will be again nice, peaceful and you will catch yourself smiling for no reason… yeah it will feel so good!
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Thank you Lucinka! Your blog is inspiring to live and enjoy life! I wish we - people would be able to clothe access of our brain to the bad memories... Or at least for small periods of time... Thank you!
in one word... just thank you :)
Be attentive to the signs, Luci, be attentive please.
And hey, come back soon, I really miss you, Ms Zombie :)
Awesome blog Luci!!
I really appreciate those who are able to kick themselves for things they deserve!
It is not easy to forget everything one has suffered in the life, but standing up, and being hopeful again is the work of Heroes!!!!
Guys, thank you all so much for your comments. I am sorry I was lately busy, couldn't reponse earlier and I didn't have any idea, you would like this little bit depressive blog :-o
I am pleasantly surprised to see here so many nice, wise comments. Thank you so much!
When the going gets rough, the tough go...shopping! :) You are not one to give up, you are strong because hope is strength. Thanks for reminding us of this.