I can’t imagine I haven’t written to you since forever. How have you been since you left for another world? Is the heaven cold?
I wonder how life is in that fairy land, but I’m sure you are now in peace of mind and soul, not like me, your little grand-daughter battling for normal desires, keeping wrong and right in everything. You know, there have been times when suffering from heartbreaking, I crazed for the permanent sleep, in which I could ease my pains, gave up thinking and groaning, and ignored all tiring stuffs in this messy globe. You must be sorry for me, a coward, always hiding from trouble, escaping out of this world for not being strong-willed enough. Please demand me an excuse for making you disappointed!
It took me nearly one year to accept the fact that you had passed by, which was really a shock to me; that’s why I never want to think of you (I’m so sorry but I can’t stand feeling depressed and shedding tears). On the day you went away forever, rain fell hard, everything seemed dull before my eyes. That time I hated myself, for not being by you when you needed me, for having many times not obeying your advice before; I screamed for that all, and I blamed on my Dad, that why he had taken us far from you for so many years, which so long that you got older and weaker coz of missing and loneliness. Truly, I understood that he just did for the better education for us, his children. On your funeral, my Mom couldn’t be in time to see you off and I had to be at work, which was regretful for all of us.
Anyway, right now I got to know how to love and sacrifice, how to give in and fight as well, how to listen to others’ problems, just what I need is brave and attempt to defeat my ego. I wish time went back to bear my soul to you, which as you were alive, I never did since I was so afraid if someone knew my secrets. And now when I need friends to confide in, I can’t, coz I don’t want to bother them much, and for the fear that I will fall into contempt.
Grandma, thank you for all your love and care, for the laughing and crying, for the gentleness and even anger, which means everything to me, one who loves you more than anything in the world!
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carri It's my honor to hear such nice words from you. You really encouraged me a lot, dear sweet Cari. I'm learning from you, though.
Yeshiwua Thanks for your time and lovely comment.
Nice letter for your grandma, I'm sure she so proud and happy for you. Don't worry she's always at your side. Just feel the care and love of your grandma. She's smiling at the heaven looking at you ^__^
♣ shabeen ♣ you seem to be in anywhere people need someone to listen. Thanks for your nice compliments and for your kind wishes.
noaslpls yea, life is not rosy road, we must give in and smile at what we have. Thanks for giving me time :-~
What a nice and warm letter. Yeah .. sometimes being an adult is not all rosy. We need to balance things out. Sometimes sacrifices had to be made.