This morning when I was surfing the Internet, I saw one of friends said, she has a photo of his mother which was taken when her mother was five. These makes me think of my father.This seems impossible but I really don't have any photo of my father.I don't know his birthday, don't know what he likes,don't kbow whether he is happy to have my younger sister and me, don't know whether he hates me because I leave him alone...When I was a little girl, I don't like my dad,he smoked a lot, drink a lot and queralled with mum a lot .Sometimes he even called us some bad names.At that time, I thought I hated him I would not feel sad if he left us.But I was wrong.I was badly badly wrong.Now I want him to talk with me ,even scold at me. However he would not give me a chance, he just left,left mum and us alone, went to the heaven.I grew up in the country, the condition is not good,even so I have a happy childhood.I had father and mother to accompany me. We didn't have much money, but we were happy.And sometimes dad is humorous.He would tell stroties if the electricity was cut. He was loath to eat and keep anything good for us.He really loved me.This is the biggest pity in my life that dad left before I learned what parental love is.I wish I were 8 years old again, so I can take care of my father.Now I am capable to make money, but I can't buy clothes, shoes,wanderful meals for my father. Buying things for my father is my dream when I was a young girl. A dream can never be come true.Dad would never know this. I think he will be happy if he knows these.I feel guilty so I never be brave enough to see my father, he just lied there,I've no idea if he is happy now ,if he have a sensible daughter now.She must be pretty and know how to care father,dad must be happier than before.Dad, I knew I have done many things wrong,can you forgive me? I love you,dad.love you very much, I hope you can hear me, can you?
At the time, you were 8 years old, you were a little cute girl and it is normal to be stubborn at that time or do something wrong. I think we all made a lot of mistakes when we were kids or even in teenagerhood or adulthood. So, there is no reason to be sad because of your anger in the past.
I am so sure that your father is so proud of you. Now, you know the value of life more than anyone else and this can help you in your personal life. Hope you always be blissful and successful.
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At the time, you were 8 years old, you were a little cute girl and it is normal to be stubborn at that time or do something wrong. I think we all made a lot of mistakes when we were kids or even in teenagerhood or adulthood. So, there is no reason to be sad because of your anger in the past.
I am so sure that your father is so proud of you. Now, you know the value of life more than anyone else and this can help you in your personal life. Hope you always be blissful and successful.
Cheers,
Nafis