Learning English has been like a habit to me, on and off depending upon my mood. By god's grace I have not had to strive much hard to grasp to the common tongue and I have always felt natural expressing my self. Live conversation are the most exciting for me which really fills my heart with thrill and glee, feels like its flowing through me.
Writing longer narratives are a problem for me, because I find it hard to concentrate long enough to constitute a logical and time worthy comprehension. It also exposes my weaknesses, baring all flaws that I prefer not to confront.
So here I am, to face off with my dread and strike fear in the heart of my apprehension, beat it with just the tips of my fingers, and inscribe a moment in history, etched on the walls of MyEC.
I have always felt that I am at a loss of words whenever I plan to compile something.
The ideas that come rushing to my mind, exploding like a volcano and destroying the very essence of the deliberation.
Every thing becomes vague and grotesque as I am left searching for the remaining shreds. This impulsive pattern has lead me to change my approach to writing.
As the ideas start unfolding themselves I try to preserve them by writing down, although disconnected, and try to focus them around the nucleus of of my notion. I imply an orthodox approach with a relative build up to the theme, then a direct introduction of the matter, the concise details that fulfill the purpose of my elaboration and closing credits that may lean towards a conclusion.
The most difficult part is keeping structure and grammar in check without breaking the rhythm/flow which I want to maintain. I must confess I give very little attention to grammatical details and prefer to illustrate my instincts, which is not a good practice.
Now where does EC comes in all of this, I can't thank enough to EC for giving me the motivation, ambition, challenge, excitement, thrill, direction, motive all of it with fun and enjoyment. I learn each and everyday and it fuels my desire to learn more. EC has helped immensely in improving my self in many dimensions of the language and my life.
Now I end your excruciating agony of reading this blog. I absolutely empathize, sympathize and feel compassion for the tormented readers of this calamity of a blog.
Comments
wow and wow
your writing is awesome! wow
i like the way you wrote it ^_^
@Mukesh & Alex.. thanks a lot buddy
@yasemin thanx alot.. I cannot learn by principals, I learn by my instincts. That might not be an appropriate way but I cannot curb my natural instincts I have to bend the rules suite my ways. MyEC has definitely been a guiding star and have opened a whole new universe of opportunities to learn..
@rema thanx alot... I do have the same problems as yours my vocabulary is weaker than yours :-S I have tried to use whatever the minimal resources are at my disposal, "the torture is over" means you will not have to endure such kind of blogs from me, it was once in a lifetime experience that you have witnessed.. ;)
@utli thanx alot .. its rather ineptitude than laziness, as now I have achieved self satisfaction, I would revert back to my natural being :D... It was a test for myself that how I fair in writing a lengthy narration, without breaking my concentration and expressing ideas in my way.
@hadeera thanx alot.. I sure do have a big head but your brain is even bigger :D, grammar is a cliche attached to the context that is hard to maintain for me I just like to go with the natural flow.
I must have fairly definite ideas about what I want to do and achieve to assuage the battle inside me. My goals sometimes are short term, involving a matter of days or weeks. On the other hand, they may be carefully planned for a career or a lifetime. Specific or not, I know I can do it!
Well...At the and, it is all just for fun...
Thanks for your great blog!
thanks dear Naveed, it's really a hard and long way to get to your goal.. I hope that all readers will get the idea .. and why not do the same ... make a determination and say bye to laziness.
Thanks.