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For several months I’ve been writing my blog on a personal level and most of the times I tend to use my words in a subjective manner. I believe that’s how blogging goes as you will transform your language for others to have a read whether your content has a sense or just good for nothing write-ups, but let’s assume what you’ve written is awesomely written. Until you asked yourself, have you ever thought if they are helpful? Is it useful? Will somebody benefit from it? These questions are not only for readers, you may get surprised but as a writer, you’ll benefit from your own writing as well.

Let me begin by saying that last two week ago was a turmoil for me, the usual Monday and an expected message from my brother got into my account. Yes, that was expected because my siblings used to send me messages whenever they wanted and they are online. The normal “te” (old sister slang for “ate”) word was written and I instantly replied “yes?” Everything seems okay, like a normal day that he wants to talk to me, and then he said afterward “do you have money?” My mind automatically thought of him asking me to send him or to buy something he likes. I answered, “I don’t have now, but I can lend from someone if you need it badly.” At first, he told me “ok” seems like not so urgent but later on, after a few minutes, he messages me again writing “Si kuya kasi naaksidente” (Older brother met an accident), that blew my mind!

I had endured so many shocking moments for the last 30 years of my life, and all along I thought that was only a normal phases of a human life. I got all that passing without a single regret, and it is normal and had to experience whatever hardships it was as I learned from an early age that people need to be tough. I gave my toll for that and accepted whatever comes my way with a thankful heart. But the spontaneity of the recent event knocked my life and for several days I found myself scattered into pieces. I was scared to death to think that my brother could possibly leave us without seeing me. God knows!

Because of my preoccupations, my writing got sore and I didn’t feel to write anything. It felt as if I was floated into a thin air and I had no vacant space for other things other than the safety of my brother. I think I stepped using a wrong foot at a wrong place, I should have written what I felt that time and deliberate my thoughts freely knowing that putting my feelings into words will help me release some tension.

Writing is a tool that researchers say it has a discreet connection to your happiness especially when you do expressive writing or just simply jotting down what you think and feel. Blogging is no exemption for having similar benefits in terms of therapeutic value. The reality that you may lose someone that is so dear to you is without a doubt will form a psychological trauma, you can’t just get a hold on your mind. Research suggests that one of the best therapies for this kind of psychological trauma is also one of the simplest: writing. 

So, I’m doing it again now to help myself and to regain the thoughts that were scattered on the ground. One by one I’m picking them and putting back to my head. Great! Feels like a renewal inside. 

Thanks for reading and God bless us all!

P.S. Take care everyone!